THE DISCOVERY OF BIRDS AND STUDYING

Kalypso discovered birds for the first time yesterday, (or it was the first time she gave them any consideration), and she wasn’t quiet about it. Some “mreow, mreows” and that little “ka, ka”-like sound came out as the two magpies jumped from branch to branch in the apple tree in our garden. She went from window to window trying to keep up.

She’s still an indoor kitten, but it’s fun to see her get more curious about the world outside. I’m going to need to get her a proper harness so she can explore before I let her outside on her own when Spring arrives.

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My cold is a lot better now. For three days all I could do was lie on the couch, even sitting was too exhausting. Journaling was out of the question, so my goal to do it every day of January kind of failed, and I’m behind on this weeks bulleting, which makes me feel awful. Writing and making collages gives me so much, so whenever I have a break I feel like I’ve lost something.

I had plans to dust off my math book and get started with studying again after my too long Christmas break today, but I had a doctors appointment and went grocery shopping afterwards and that was enough for me. That was enough exposure for one day.

I have this fear of studying. Or a fear of failure, of not being good enough. It’s paralysing. Maybe tomorrow will be a good day to try and challenge it again.

x Almond

A RATHER SLOW MORNING

Today I’m having a slow and calm morning. The clock has already stretched to 1:30PM, so it’s technically mid day, but it feels a lot like morning still – I’m still in my one piece snuggle suit. Next to me is my owl cup, Evie, filled with hot broth. My second one for the day.

Yesterday I was dead beat, my whole body hurt. I have a cold that has really broken out, and today is unfortunately not any better. What makes it even worse is that I was supposed to visit my sister today, (which I was really looking forward to), but as I’m not in shape (at all), we postponed. Hopefully I’ll see her next weekend!

Today isn’t all bad, though, as my mom and I have 6 episodes of Masterchef Australia saved up! All those episodes are exactly what I need on a day like this and I wouldn’t ask for more. (Except for, maybe, some ice cream and a less runny nose).

I feel so sorry for myself when I’m sick, it’s stupid, so I’m about to head for bed for a nap. I know this wasn’t much of a post, but I wanted to do an update so it wouldn’t be all bare on here, and to give an explanation as to why there might not be a post for the next couple of days. *Crossing my fingers for a quick recovery*.

x Almond

OLD JOURNAL SPREAD AND MIND CRAMPS

My head has been a mess these past few days. A complete, utter mess. But it’s also so empty. Intense thoughts filled with the whole spectrum of emotions fly by at the speed of light. There’s so much going on one second, and it’s gone the next. From everything to nothing. Over and over. I’m not sure how to describe it other than, maybe, mind cramps?

I can’t grasp everything that passes through my head and it makes me feel at a loss and that’s where the emptiness comes in. It puts me off not even being able to make out what’s going on in my own mind most of the time. Like I’m not good enough somehow. To identify my emotions have never been my strong suit, though. It’s a chaos and it’s tiring. I’m left feeling lost.

So that was the rant-of-the-day, but anyways… I have set up my bullet journal for the new year and started on January, but I have some spreads from last year that I want to show you first. Like this weekly reflection from week 49.

It’s not my best work visually, but it did serve its purpose. I usually have some standard questions I answer in my weekly reflections, like what I can improve the next week, what worked and what did not work, what I was grateful for, what I can forgive myself for and let go of, and so on. I plan on getting back to them this year as I find they can be quite productive.

Above you can see the printer I use for photos in my journal. It’s the Kodak Photo Printer Mini 2. I tried the HP Sprocket for a little while, but found that the images turned out really blue and I spent 2-3 sheets of “film” on trying to get them edited perfectly, and I felt like that was too much of a waste. This one has better colour rendering (in my opinion).

I actually have some plans and goals for my (bullet) journaling in 2020 which I thought I’d share in another post, (because this post is already too long, haha). But to finish off, what is your goal with your (bullet) journal this year? Is there something you’d like to get better at or something you want it to help you with? And how do you plan on accomplishing this? I’d love to hear your thoughts!

x Almond